Realism vs. fakism, Reality vs. Delusion

These are quotes from a transwoman "Mike was the most audacious, according to Lisa. He would venture outdoors dressed in full drag, despite the fact that he was “taller and bigger” than everyone. “He's a very big man,” she said. “So for him to actually try to pull off looking like a woman … I hate to say it but that wasn't going to happen.”

His bravado ended up costing him. Mike decided to come out to some friends, and it resulted, Lisa believes, in his death. “He told a few people and when they got mad at him they told everybody,” she said. “And right away, he's a pervert, he's a loser, he's gay, and all that, you know? And I don't think he dealt with that too well. He ended up taking drugs and ended up dying because of that.”"


That is reality. Real life. Transition is not all peaches and rainbows. I am bigger and taller than most transwomen. But these fuckers victim blame me and minimize my transition. They just tell me to transition and stop whining. As if I can push a button and flawlessly turn into a girl. As if my transition will go swimmingly, just because they happened to get lucky and don't have trouble with theirs. What a fucking sad joke. How arrogant and patronizing.

Also I got the thing from reading about female masks. I want to wear a female mask but I can't, because stupid transphobic society will call me a creep zone. Maybe I am a creep zone, but wearing a female mask would actually make me less of a creep zone than before, because it shows I want to be beautiful. But if you want to be beautiful society just drags you down and tells you you have to be a sheep herder like Lebron James. Stuck in the mud with the random genes you been given. What a sad and infuriating joke.

I have NEVER gone out of my house in DRAG. I am a woman and a tall woman and I dress as a woman AND THAT IS THE REALITY I LIVE IN.

You will never transition if you continue to put up blocks to your transition. I have seen transwomen who were 6'4" carpenters in a different life. I know one transwoman who is 6'6" tall and simply says 'Fuck em. I am who I am'.

Just like Popeye said 'I yam who I yam and that is all the I yam'.

So, to quote Miki - 'If you cannot get past who you are, you will never become who you are'.

I'm with Michaela. I don't go anywhere "in drag." I may go in skirts and pretty blouses, but, there's nothing "male" about my presentation.

MichaelaSJ wrote:I have NEVER gone out of my house in DRAG. I am a woman and a tall woman and I dress as a woman AND THAT IS THE REALITY I LIVE IN.

You will never transition if you continue to put up blocks to your transition. I have seen transwomen who were 6'4" carpenters in a different life. I know one transwoman who is 6'6" tall and simply says 'Fuck em. I am who I am'.

Just like Popeye said 'I yam who I yam and that is all the I yam'.

So, to quote Miki - 'If you cannot get past who you are, you will never become who you are'.

Popeye is a fictional, cartoon character, same as the Joker, who is 6'5 and I believe is trans, but is in the closet about it (due to being 6'5), which I think fuels their irrational-seeming hatred for humanity.

In any case, I am neither Popeye, the Joker, or a carpenter, so the whole "Fuck em, I am who I am thing" is just not gonna work for me. I don't want to be viewed as some second-class, non-passing person who is a target of never-ending weird looks and ridicule.

What I am, is a f**king turtle, who just wants a peaceful, quiet life of love.

In any case, going to make a new thread briefly going into my trans identity, which was revealed to me in an epiphany today.