Coming out to my Dr.

So I haven't been a regular since the old board went down, but I thought I'd pop in today with a bit of news.
Well I've just moved to a new area, and today I've made the terrifying decision to meet with a new doctor and come out officially.
I've been dancing around this decision for a few years now but I decided it's crunch time, no more putting it off.
I am very nervous about this and I'm not even sure how well it will be received.
So wish me luck!

Well I survived!
(So far)
My biggest fear in going into this was being told "No" but it was in the end nothing to be nervous about. Today was about meeting the doctor for the first time, and I was nervous! But once the words were out of my mouth, it was easier.
I already have another appointment next week, to discuss a plan of action moving forward.

Hi MyNicky!!!

Nice to hear from you again and what news!!! The step of steps is overcome and may I wish you complete success on the road to the real you!

Loving your hair btw!!!!

Keep in touch and let us know how you are getting on! Join in and have fun talking about anything and everything! From tips to music, from your life, tour day, music, fashion, football. There's only about ten or so of us here that are regular, so you will have our full attention!

So, a big hooray!!!!

Celia xx

Well done, as usual with these things the anticipation is often worse than the actual reality. Now you can go forward.

I haven't told the my Doctor. Well he's not my Doctor He's the one I attend. None of his business.

Greetings.

Glad to have you in our gang, and glad to hear step one went well.

Hoping to hear more about your journey.

Because of my age, being a veteran and health issues I have at least 5 different doctors.

I came out to each one the first time I met after I announced to myself that I was trans and got a great welcome from each doctor. I even came out to my dentist who was an Air Force dentist for nearly 20 years and he didn't drill any deeper than necessary to get that cavity filled.

My biggest health issue is a conflict between my lungs and my heart. My pulmonologist apologized when he had to put a 'male' designation in his pulmonary testing machine because the parameters need to be calibrated male or female and since my body (NOT MY MIND) is still male.

I assume there are doctors out there that don't understand gender, but in my case, they all understood who I was going to be and their acceptance was pleasantly welcomed.

Congrats on a big step.

I had to go to a new doctor since we moved. I was apprehensive until I got to the patient information form. It asked for physical sex and gender identity. It was easy from there.

Best of luck in the future!

Don't be a stranger!

Well I was supposed to have my first session with a psychologist this week, but now it turns out it has to be pushed back by a week. The suspense is killing me!
But I am patient by my very nature and all things considered I still don't have to wait that long

Hi MyNicky!!!!

Oh a set back, coz I know that we get impatient!!!! I hate waiting for anything, but at least a new date us set and the week will pass soon enough. Wishing it goes super dooper quickly for you!!!!

Celia xx

Well, I survived my initial counselling appointment!
I feel like it went really well, I found it surprisingly easy to let it all out. My biggest fear was feeling invalidated, but it wasn't like that at all.
And upon the advice I got, I've now registered on the waitlist for a specialised clinic. I started to panic when the first one I called politely advised they weren't taking on new appointments and to "check the facebook page for availability"....
It only took one more call to get my name on the list. It's a long wait time just to get in, but that's another box checked.

I am very pleased for you Nicky, I hope things move along quickly now and ye, another box checked! Best wishes to you sweetheart!!!

Celia xx

April 7th, counting down, I finally have an appointment at the gender clinic I'm terrified of gatekeepers though

Wow, they have hung it out. But getting very near now! I am certain it will all go quite easy peasy, so don't get any jitters and that, they are always nice people. It's like countdowns that are so very, very important to us individually that have great meaning to us and others can't see it? I know where you are My Nicky!!!!

I have a countdown myself, I'm waiting for my rhinoplasty, I have enough now and am probably having it in October coz I am bummed out on days off even though I'm working flat out these days, (nightshifts are getting harder and harder), can't wait to get my retirement dosh!!!! Once I've got the rhino, I am pretty where I wanna be facially, but then there'll be new quests for a couple of others like apple shave and rib removal, but they can wait for now…. there will no doubt be others after that and then more, I shan't ever be content!!!

Celia xx

I'm always honest with the Dr. NOW

It took a blood clot in my kidney to come out. I was mail ordering Spiro, and estradiol. Guessing at my doses and the source was shady so no telling what I actually took.

Doctor's are trained in this and have a much better understanding. I'm not thrilled to be trans but it's not going to go away so I tell every doctor. I don't want to go back to black market meds.

Most Dr.s are somewhat excited to have an interesting patient, even to the point I have to ask them to focus on the issue I came in for.

I saw my doctor yesterday, routine bloodwork check.

Joked with him, "I think I'm pregnant." He chuckled, that will surely make you famous, virgin births and all that.

Talked to my dr. today. About logistics:
The blood is taken at A
Sent to lab C
Then sent to dr A and B
Then I follow up with B
Then dr B sends A a script
to be filled by A depending on his take on the blood
We might have to do a specialist. D or E
Depending on the results of the blood

And all that depends on my comfort with the risk of the script AT MY AGE (wtf?).
Then there's the discussion on what the benefits are, I'm most likely done developing. So it's likely going to be something moderate compared to the puberty hormones I was on, which bothers me. But I may ramp up for a while and step down slowly to see what I can live with.
So I'll have to weigh in on what medication I'm wanting to take and why.

Then there's some meds that only insurance B+ will cover if you don't take the other meds.
Starting on a pre-auth for some laser an electro. I reaalllllllyyy want that finished. Been bothering me for at least 44 years. Then, for the first time in my life I'll consider going under the knife. I'm not a big fan of getting cut on but this body of mine could use some help if I'm going to go full time. When people start saying "At your age", priorities suddenly seem urgent.

I really like that's what I'm talking to my dr about. Not about, who gendered me what or who won't help or who refused. It's been a long transition for me. Mostly due to biggots in my life. Some of whom were in healthcare.

You don't take hormone therapy for the breasts. you take it for a bit of breast growth, and all the other effects.

Hormone therapy will do all sorts of things both psycho and physiological. You lose body hair, you lose aggression, you gain softer younger appearances, you gain a better attitude. It stops head hair loss, it starts monthly mood swings.

You don't get GRS for them, you get it for you. It changes how you look naked, it doesn't change your sex life. It won't make you more female, you already would be female. It does make it harder to call you male.

As for age, well, you can still date at 70, still get married at 70, still fuck at 70, so why claim 70 is too late. I've known people who died having sex at 35, and you can die on the table at any age. So how much do you want to enjoy the rest of your life? Would you rather risk dying on the table so that you won't mind living for the rest of your life?

Trans need to come out and get respect. Support come out to my DR.

Updated time! Nearly 12 months later... I have some news going forward. After my April appointment got canned THANKS A LOT COVID, I finally got an appointment through telehealth, and through that a referral for the all important blood tests. Which I got done this morning, before I talked myself out of it.
Now, fingers crossed nothing comes up when the results come back and things can finally move forward. This entire past year has been a limbo of waiting lists and I've barely been able to function because of it. Kind of just waiting and waiting for that next step to happen and frustrated when it's out of my control.
I was most scared of the blood tests, but its done now, no more wishing there was a way around it - what felt like one of the hardest parts is done.

Don't let a little (but extremely and potentially deadly) little thing like a virus get in the way of becoming who you are and deserve to be - keep on keeping on girl.

Just stay safe so you can become...

I remember once talking about taking "baby steps".
I've been toddling around for a few years now so comparatively I guess I'm now ready for kindergarten?

You know when you were in kindygarden and you wanted to play with the big girls and then you were in the 5th grade and you wanted to play with the big girls and then you were in high school and you want to get through it so you could be a big girl - watch out, it happens faster than you think.

Hi Miki and My Nicky,

Stuff Babysteps! Full frickin' steam ahead! I've heard the babysteps thing a few times.... Sorry I don't swear... NO! Do everything that you can as soon as is possible, within medical guidelines!

I was looking forward to my rhinoplasty and am simply gagging for it now. I am missing laser too, I am as pissed off about Covid sodding 19 as anyone, but keep on keeping on and don't take baby steps take the steps, strides, leaps and then bounds of a confident woman and head held high.... nose up!!!!!!!

Celia xx

Whelp.... Guess who officially started HRT today

Good for you, girl. Good for you!